Learning

Well I know that I should not weigh myself more than once a week but I couldn't help it this morning. According to the scale I have already lost 5 lbs. I am not going to make it official because I am only supposed to weigh in on Tuesdays because that is the day I weigh in for weight watchers. I had to weigh myself because I honestly thought I was eating too much and I didn't think weight watchers was working. I don't know why I felt like that. Well, I have an idea. Lets put this in prospective. Yesterday I was interested in finding out how many weight watcher points Velveeta mac and cheese was. I was SHOCKED to find out ONE serving was 9 POINTS! I am not lying when I say I used to get a box at time of that stuff which would be 27 POINTS. That would be about half of my points for the day. I get to have 60 points a day right now! So that would be a SIDE dish to a typical meal I would eat. Now, add corn, a meat, maybe some rice. I can only imagine the number of points I was eating in ONE meal! Last night all I keep thinking was why did I do this to myself! I can't believe I was eating like that that! So, I am learning! The crankiness has gone down! I feel like I am starting to get used to eating on this diet. I am working out a little and I feel like I eat all day long. I am glad that I am starting this new way of life before I go back to work so all of my focus on me and I can give it all I have. The next thing I will have to figure out is going to work. I work an hour away and packing a lunch is not really an option for me. So right now, my plan is to being a smart ones frozen one for lunch and eat that. I think that sounds like a good plan.

It snowed a little bit last night and I couldn't help but dream this morning when I woke up. I can't wait till I can wear leggings with ugg boots and a big sweater. I have tried this look at the weight I am at now it is a nooo go! So, next winter I will rock this outfit! I am still feeling very motivated.

The problem I have with weighing myself is that I lose weight and feel great and think I can reward myself with a great meal, which translates to fast food. Not this time, I deserve to feel great about my body not the couple of moments I get with fast food!  I just have to keep telling myself that! Weight watchers is not a fad diet, I know that I am not going to get fast results and I have to accept that and know that if I lose 2 pounds a week for the next year of my life I am going to be soo different!

Last year a dear coworker of mine, started a diet that has changed her life and it has been another motivation of mine. I remember seeing the weight come off and telling her how much I respected her because I couldn't do a diet that I didn't get faster results. I remember saying "Lauren do the no carbs thing, you can eat as much as you want, and lose more weight than weight watchers" Well, you can see how that worked out. She is 80 plus lbs lighter and I am actually bigger!!!So, here I am..starting on this new journey.
   I am so proud of myself for sticking to this. I know it has only been 5 days. But, I as Bob put in on the biggest loser this week, I can't look at how much I need to lose, just think about today and what you need to do!
   ..thanks for all the support everyone..I love that everyone is reading this and supporting me. It is just what I need!