Tuesday, January 4, 2011

Cranky

I feel like a drug addict....like I am withdrawing from bad food. All I think about is food, all I want is food, all I wanna do is eat. I wanna sleep just because that means I get to wake up and eat. It is a little overwhelming. But, this is the point I usually get to and cheat and say screw it I will try again next week, which next week turns into next month and then next year. Well the good news is that I didn't cheat. I even worked out on the elliptical for 30 min. I figure on the days that it is hard for me and I wanna cheat I should work out. I am pretty good about not cheating once I work out, so I need to know that and keep working out. My grandma is trying to lose weight now, so grandma here is shout out to you! Lets do this! We can do this, I miss you and I love you so much! I will think about you every time I even think about cheating!
  I watched the show, Used to be Fat, on MTV!!! I think it is great show! I cried today watching it because I truly feel what those girls feel!

It is hard to go slow and steady...I am pissed I diet for a day and wake up and isn't gone yet. I know that is not possible and I HAVE to learn to keep going.
....today was just a hard day and I know that there are many hard days to come....I can do this!

1 comment:

  1. Hey :) I think part of it being overwhelming is that you are putting too much pressure on yourself. What are your goals? Long term AND short term? You should focus on mini goals. I know you've read my blog, and I'm not saying you should do what I am doing because I don't know if it will work yet, but you should definitely do some small mini goals. Things that are easy to achieve in a short period of time. That way, you can celebebrate your accomplishments quicker (without rewarding yourself with food, of course). Don't focus so much on the long term goal because that may take longer than what you're willing to accept without feeling defeated. Also, try to make sure that you are drinking as much water as you can. I hated the idea of it, because while I LOVE water the concept of drinking water screams "I'M RESTRICTED" to me, but having it as a mini goal for this month has me feeling SOOOO different.. I CRAVE water, which is weird. And I've honestly not touched soda in almost 4 days now. Don't even crave it. And haven't craved anything BUT water. So, pick some things that you would like to change about your diet and start working on those goals. When you've accomplished them, do something fun for yourself, something special to you, and celebrate you!!! :) Then set a new goal. Before you know it, eating healthy and thinking healthy and living healthy will come naturally! You can do this, girlfriend! I know you can! :) Don't cry, don't be sad. Don't let it win. Figure out a way to come out on top! Hope you're doing better since your post was a couple days ago!

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