Day One

Well, I signed up for weight watchers and I worked out yesterday in this  fat burning zone! It is crazy because I feel like I am not working out but I guess this burns the most fat calories and we all know that is my big need.  I need to get a watch thing that tells me what my heart rate so that I can walk the dogs and keep my heart rate at the right number. Maybe a HINT HINT for my parents for my birthday coming up! :)

This year on Thanksgiving I am going to something I have never done. I am going to run a turkey trot. The head coach that I work under likes her girls to run a turkey trot over thanksgiving break and I am going to do it this year. So, the plan is to have my family come to my house for Thanksgiving and run it together as a family. I am hoping maybe by me doing this weight loss thing my brother will do something. He isn't big like me, but I know that if he doesn't start losing now he will get to a point that I am in where you start getting nervous about your future! So there is my big goal. RUN 3.4 OR 3.2 ( cant remember) miles on thanksgiving! When I told my grandma Toots that I was going to do this a while back she was like yeaaahhh...haha...I don't blame her. But, I will do it!

Heather started her last spring in track today. She couldn't sleep last night so we woke up at 4 am this morning and we went grocery shopping.  So now, I have no excuses! I only have healthy food in the house and Heather is trying to lose some weight too so I know she will be a good supporter. I can't help but get excited about me doing this. I cant imagine what my new life is going to bring me.

I went back to sleep when we got home and didn't wake up till 1! I am not working right now because we are still on Christmas break but I dread when  we are in season because I spend a majority of the time on the road which means FAST FOOD. Fast food is my big big big big big temptation. I am not kidding when I say I AT LEAST eat...two fast food meals in one sitting. Then, you wonder why I am this big. Today I went to Redbox to get some movies because I got a free code in texts today  and I drove by Clovers and thought to myself I can cheat. I am by myself, no one will know. I have done that many times before. I can't count how many times I have stopped and gotten fast food and put the trash in someone else's trash can so that I wouldn't get questioned when I would want to eat an hour later. Well, I didn't stop at Culver's and I almost feel like am exhausted from saying no. This is going to be hard and I don't play games I am not good at. I am not good at this weight loss thing or I would be where I want to be, but it is a new year and a new me and I am going to have to start saying NO to fast food! So, little victory, one point for me!:)

I went and got a battery for the scale and I am 371:(. I knew that I was around there. The heaviest I have ever been is 375. So I am right up there. I found that when I saw that number I thought well at least I am not 375. Right after I thought that, I got mad. THAT IS MY PROBLEM. WELL, AT LEAST I  AM NOT that Wight! Do you know when you say that statement how you allow yourself to gain more weight. So My attitude is I can't believe that I am 371, and I am never going to see that number because that is just disgusting that I allowed myself to get like this.

.....I can't wait to neverr see that number again.