Well I lost 1 lb this week! I wasnt happy about it....but at least I didn't gain. I didnt cheat so that was good. I have a big week the week before so I was expecting a big number. But that offically put me at 20 lbs lost!!! I feel great!
I am such better shape. Yesterday I pitched to the girls on my team...like not just Batting Practice but actually pitched and I lasted. In the fall I pitched to them and I am not kidding when I say I lasted THREE batters and seriously felt like I was going to throw up! Well, this time arround I pitched to 7 girls about 12 pitches each! Then I had the same moment...where the world is spinning and you have to go outside but I recovered got back up and pitched to about 5 more girls then I let people have at bats against me! It was soooo fun! I am thinking about playing softball this summer for a womens major team! It is basically adult travel ball. Some old pros play on the team and some good pitchers from around the area. I miss competing so much! I also think it would be a great goal before my 5k to get into pitching shape. This week I did Julian Micheals workout video. Her 30 lb shred! I tried in a while ago and seriously couldn't do it at all...this week I did it!! I had to stop some....but I did the whole video..level 1! I am really excited about that! I miss working out...I love the way it makes me feel. I like how much happier I am. I love how much better I feel about myself. I was so sore after doing that workout video so I am going to have to do it more! I also took 40 sec off my mile this week! I will test my mile again on Monday to see if it gets any better!!!
Today I leave for our first road trip. I will be away for 4 days! AHHHHHH...I am nervous about the food! Heather hasn't really recovered from her road trip...she stayed the say last week in the wiegh in and she is upset! She said she made really really good choices! So we shall see! I am going to make it a point to work out and I am going to try my BEST to only eat good things. I know I can do it!
The other night..I had a really bad craving for fast food. I was ready to throw in the towel and just go eat it and say screw the lifestyle change! I wanted it soo bad. I even looked up how many points it would be and everything thinking I won't make a horrible choice but I craved fatty fatty food! Well, I didn't go...and I was really proud but, then I felt guilty....I didn't even cheat but I felt guilty that I even thought about cheating...It is weird what your minds does to you!!!
I hope my pitchers so well this weekend because I have put so much work into them and I don't want the stress of them doing horrible. I know this is shelfish...but I don't wanna have that out of control feeling because that brings on binge eating!!! I have faith that they have learned well and will do ok!
......here goes nothing....
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